Probably shouldn't hit publish, but going to anyways because it's my blog

Umm... I'm pretty much a blubbery, jittery mess right about now. Poor Mr Lemon. This is POSITIVELY the last time I get married. He is very happy about this.

I've spent all week asking myself "Are you SURE?" and saying, "Self! Yes! I'm sure!"

I've spent all week asking Mr Lemon"Are you SURE?" and hearing "Yes! I'm sure!"

The deal is, in less than 3 months, Mr Lemon has totally changed my perception of marriage and love. When I got divorced, I fully expected, yay even PLANNED to date every eligible guy that met just a few of my requirements. Then, when I interrogated them got to know them better, I would see if they met the FULL list of requirements. I even told Mr Lemon the 2nd time we talked that I would not be dating him exclusively.

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But the more time I spent talking to Mr Lemon on the phone, and the more we have been together, I found very quickly that his love was the mature love I was looking for. I loved Jamie's post today, it made me cry today (again). Because I am not the stupid young Christian with those first two reasons for getting married. I was a good wife. I have been through the better and the worse, and the richer and the poorer. Even the sickness and in health. Dustin's choices changed our lives, but I am a GOOD WIFE. And Mr Lemon has been through it too. He was a GOOD HUSBAND.

And we are happy together. We are jumping off the cliff with our eyes wide open, but as I told my mom when I told her I was going to marry him, I know that Mr Lemon will pull my parachute string. I trust him.

I'm SURE. I love him with every beat of my heart.

Shallow purse shopping post to come next week.